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Well, I dont know what is happening to me. I was doing so well for the first month of this “new lifestyle”.  I am back to not wanting to do anything but eat and lay around!  So depressing!  There are 2 things in my life I have never been able to control…..weight and smoking. Both of those things have always had me by the tail.  I have tried multiple times to quit both with no success! I sometimes think it would be so much easier to have another addiction.  With that being said, you cant live without food, so therefore, I can never get away from it.  I dont understand why I am so good to other people and hold them at a very valuable standard, but I cant do that for myself!  Dont I love myself enough?  Dont I feel like I am worth more then I give myself?  Apparently not!  I am last on my list, with everyone and everything else coming in first.  I dont know how to change that!  I have truly tried, but cant seem to hold myself worthy enough to make the change permenant!  I feel selfish if I do much of anything for me.  There is always someone else I feel is more important then myself.  Does anyone else feel like this or am I just on the crazy train out of town? I see so much success on here.  I feel so good for those of you on here that have this thing whipped!

I have refused to step on the scale for the past 2 weeks.  I cant bring myself to look at the numbers! I know I am in danger of gaining back the 11 pounds I lost last month.  I quit our weight loss group at work. I dont know what is wrong with me!!  I am so frustrated.

I just wanted to let you buddies know that I received the Volumetrics book Friday.  I havent had much of a chance to read it.  I am going to take it to work with me tonight and hopefully we wont be too busy and I can go through it.  I did skim over it and it looks promising.  I dont know if I mentioned it on here before, but the problem I have with following “diet” books like Dr Phil and South Beach is, I hate the food!  I mean they have meal plans that I cant stand to eat the food so it wont work for me.  The sample meal plans that I saw in the magazine looked really good and I would eat the food!  That is why I decided to buy the book.  I am looking for something I can lose the weight on and then be able to eat that way the rest of my life to KEEP the weight off!  That is my problem. Once I get the weight off, I think NOW WHAT????  No one wants to give you a clear cut solution on how not to gain it back.  I wanted to find something that made me feel like a half way normal person with my eating habits.  What ever normal is.

I did gain a pound last week.  Cant blame my period for that one!  It was just plain not writing in my food journal and just eating what and all that I wanted to eat.  I just wish I could get through a whole day eating like normal people that dont have a weight problem eat!

My daughter is still doing pretty good.  She came to me yesterday and told me that her pants felt alittle bigger.  She was just beaming about it.  I told her it will only get better as she makes better food choices and more activity.  She told me she thought she might play tennis next fall in high school.  That is amazing to me, because she doesnt really like to exert herself much!  She is my bookworm!

Good luck this week guys!  I am hoping to do better. 

Well I gained a pound this week. I knew that it was probably not going to go well, as I was not good at all this week with my eating.  I ate out alot.  Just no time to cook, which I know is no excuse.  However, this is the beginning of a new week, so I can do better.

I didnt have time to write much of a post yesterday. I was so busy trying to get things done for the weekend after work. But anyway, my 5 pound loss this week really helped me feel much better and gave me some motivation to keep on keeping on! I bought a magazine last night at Wal Mart. It usually has things in it about weight management and stuff. Anyway I read this story about a woman that lost 200 pounds on this weight loss plan called Volumetrics. Has anyone else heard of it? Anyway, I ususally dont like diet plans because they want you to eat stuff, I would never eat and it is a waste of time for me to go on them or buy the books. But this plan has regular food! It is about eating soups and high water and fiber concentrates to make sure you feel full. If you feel full you dont want to eat anymore. Well any way it is by a doctor of nutrition with last name of Rolls. I ordered the book this morning off of Amazon. I will let you know once I get it what I think about it. But the meal plan that this lady gave in the magazine seems to be managable and like regular food to eat. I am not looking for gimiacks. I have been there and done that. I am looking for something I can live with the rest of my life so I can keep the weight off. Maybe this is it. I have kinda been like a fart in a whirl wind with my eating plan so far! I mean I am VERY happy with 11 pounds gone. But I am compulsive when it comes to being organized and I dont feel like my eating plan is in order. Does that sound stupid? Probably does, but I cant help it. I have continued to keep my food journal daily. I even write things down that I should not have eaten like hostess donuts. But I feel like that is a good visual aid for me to keep myself in check! The journal has kept me honest with myself.
This weeks goals are exercise! exercise!exercise! And I need to up my water intake. I havent been very good at either!

Good luck this week buddies. I will be back later!

I am happy to report that I finally had a good loss this week. 5 pounds!!!! woo hoo. That really gave me a jump start for this coming week!

I was talking to one of the girls I work with yesterday about my weight gain last week.  I know I havent been doing that great but I didnt think I had done bad enough for a gain last week.  Soooo, we were talking about Miss “M” visiting me yesterday.  She told me sometimes you can have a 3 to 4 pound weight gain right before your period.  Does anyone know if that is true?  It has been so long since I have monitored my weight that I forget.  If that is the case, then that could have had something to do with my weight gain this past week.  The first week we went on our weight loss program at work, I weighed in the first weigh in then the second week, I lost like 7 pounds. Most of that was working my butt off that week, but I do think alot had to do with starting my period.  Just wondering if anyone has any input on this.  It might make me feel alittle better about the gain.  But buddies tell me the truth, cause I need it!

I am getting ready to get off of here and exercise!  Yep, I am gonna get on it this week! So wish me luck!  and good luck to everyone else this week!

I had a 2 lb gain today and only have myself to blame for it.  I used to attend TOPS club and they used to say a kind of prayer at the end of each meeting.  In the last part of the prayer you would reciet “and even though I overeat in private, the excess pounds are there for all the world to see”  That is soooo true. 

It was hard to tell my husband and my son today that I had gained.  They are my biggest cheerleaders!  I think in an earlier post I stated that my son is the fittest person in my home.  He is built nice and is in very good shape.  He has worked hard for that. He lifts weights and watches his diet.  He is an athlete, playing 3 sports per year.  When he was younger he was a short chubby little kid.  Kids made fun of him and hurt his feelings alot.  Then the summer between his 6th and 7th grade year, he grew about 4 inches. It stretched him all out and he was very skinny and he liked that.  Now he is tall and muscular and likes that even more.  He is so supportive of me.  He has never been embarassed by me, which I am happy about.  He worries now about my health because he knows the diseases that can come from being overweight, and I am not getting any younger.  He looked alittle disappointed at first when I told him today, but then quickly went into cheer mode and told me that he knows I will do better this week!  I love him so much.  He really is a good kid.